The Ups and Downs

I'm up.

I know that I expected it. Not because of poor eating but because of scale watching.

Up .7. Not even a pound but still up when I was hoping to be down.

Week 3 (A Week Late)

Yes, I weighed in last Friday, but I haven't gotten around to posting until now.

DOWN!

4.9 lbs!

YEAH!

It was a great week and a great loss and I should have shared it earlier.

Now I weigh in again in the morning. I am dreading it. It has been an OK week. Nothing stellar, but alright. I stayed within my points but didn't focus as much on making sure that I am meeting the GHGs. I definately didn't drink enough water. I am pretty much counting on being up again. How do I figure? See my last post about my scale addiction.

I will keep you posted.

Also, we got the Wii Fit this week. I like it so far but will ahve to tell you the whole story. Needless to say that my sugar-loving, sweet stuffing husband started counting points this week after doing the Fit Test.

Cheers to meeting my GHGs this next week!
(Holding a big glass of H2O)

A Weighty Issue

All scales are different. That is why I weigh on the same scale everytime.

The problem is...

if it is a problem...

I weigh everyday.

I have been getting mixed messages.

I have heard to only weigh yourself once a week. Reason being what? To not get frustrated by the daily fluctuations of the number on the display? I have to admit that I am overjoyed when the number is lower than I expect but then frustrated when it is up a little the next day. I also find myself wanting to record my lowest weight for the week rather than my weight Friday mornings. If I did I would be down 14.2 rather than 11.4.

I have seen that many weigh everyday. These are mostly people in maintenance and do it just to stay in check. But shouldn't I be making habits now that I will keep for the long run? It also is a good reminder for me to stay on track for the day so that I could possibly see a lower number the next day.

While I am pondering the scale I have to admit that most nights I hop on it before bed. More out of curiosity than record. Maybe it is a sick obsession. Not necessarily with the number on the scale but rather the difference between night and morning. How much do I lose when I sleep? Or is it the 2 times that I get up to pee that make the diffence. It is usually around 3 lbs. On a day when I am especially obsessed, I might even venture a trip to the scale before and after a meal or trip to the bathroom. I know, strange.

Now that this is out I realize that I need to....

STEP AWAY FROM THE SCALE!

Surviving the Hospital

So, the plan was to blog everyday. Well plans fell through but that's OK. I am still OP and pretty proud of myself. It has been a pretty stressful week and I have avoided eating my stress away. That is a big step for me.

Tomorrow is weigh-in say for me and I am a little nervous. To be honest, I am really hoping for 3 lbs, but think it might be less. I had a HUGE loss last week and TOM is here so I kind of feel like I have those things going against me. I guess we will see.

As for the past few days and the cause of my stress, my son had surgery yesterday. We had to be there at the crack of dawn because he is a baby and can't eat before the surgery. I guess I should be glad that they got him in early. Everything turned out fine and I am so thankful for that. As for staying OP, I packed food for the 2 days I would be staying at the hospital except for dinner. My husband went and picked up Subway. It felt great to be in control and not eat myself silly through the hospital stay. My husband had two surgeries in the fall and I hit up the hospital gift shop for junk and snacked the whole time he was in surgery and then blamed it on the nerves. Even though that is exactly what the husband wanted to do, I knew better than to even take a look at the little shop's aisles of junk.

I love Subway. Really, it's nothing more than a sandwich but I always know that I kind get something that isn't going to blow my day. Yesterday, I decided to leave off my usual light mayo and cheese and save myself the points. I added a splash of vinegar to give the sandwich some moisture. It was tangy and delicious and made me realize that I don't really need the mayo. I think that the 6 in turkey was only 5 points.

Tonight a friend from church is bringing us dinner. I am thankful to have people that are willing to serve our little family. However, I feel a little out of control of the situation. I think that she is bringing lasagne (8pts) and garlic or cheese bread (4 pts). Not great point options but delicious nevertheless. I have been careful all day planning around it. I am going to have a piece of lasagne and a small slice of bread and really fill up on salad (0-1 pt). Just pray is comes undressed or I will be making my own.

Cheers to:
1. Having baby boy make it safely through surgery
2. Making it through week 2 eating clean
3. Subway!

10.1

pounds that is. i am amazed and stunned that that is the real number. i know that a ton of it is water weight. i ate really bad during the holidays and i could tell i was retaining, but 10.1 that's awesome and motivating.

on the flipside, it is probably good that i read this post by roni at roni's weigh this morning. i need to remember this next week if the scale doesn't move. i need to remember to trust the program. it works. i was doing ww before i got pregnant and lost around 40 lbs in 5 months. that's results!

10:56 p.m.

that's what time it is.

and i am just posting for the day.

internet was down all day. husband got it up and running tonight.

little girl is transitioning to a toddler bed and so wandered out a few times. baby boy is strangly wide awake. normally he is a sleeping champ. no time for myself today.

almost just posted from my phone but the battery almost dead so plugged it in instead.

that's the type of day i had.

however, i had a great day with my eating. stayed within my points even though i didn't track online like usual. i love ww e-tools so it was sorely missed today. i input everything in the evening. tomorrow i am weighing myself. i have to admit i am excited to see the results. made a recipe from my new cookbook. reserved a blog name for a place to post recipes. we will see how that turns out. mother-in-law taught me how to make her beans. they turned out awesome. for dinner i made homemade pizza. more on that later.

off to bed. husband is waiting. it is unusual for him to hit the sack before me.

cleaning out the pantry

a lot of bad food has been hiding out in cupboards and pantry. stuff i shouldn't eat, but did. yesterday, i stocked up on good things. made a costco run and hot up the supermarket too for produce. was able to keep my shopping cart full of clean things. came home proud and motivated.

while putting the groceries away I found a packet of oatmeal that looked like it had been nibbled on. yikes! upon closer examination, i found droppings. yes, rodent droppings. small, but still droppings. so gross. first, i am totally embarrassed that i had a mouse in the house. our house is always pretty clean. i like it clean but my husband insists that it is clean. second, it gave me the creeps that this little thing was crawling all over.

i immediately started cleaning the entire pantry, pulling everything out. having to touch every piece of food in the pantry was a perfect start. gave me the opportunity to evaluate what I had, what i should eat and what to toss. i guess this is the sunny side of having a mouse in your house. the pantry is perfectly organized, rid of stuff that shouldn't be around, the food is rotated and everything is sealed up. my husband picked up a bunch of tupperware while he with getting so sticky mice traps. he came home and set out 4.

last night, as i was finishing up my blog header I heard some scurrying and then some squeeking. sure enough, a mouse. i never saw it. too chicken. it must have been living under the dryer. don't really know how it got in. i think it was only one. 3 more traps are waiting for others in case there are more. i really don't think so though.

so here's to you little mouse. thanks for motivating me to rid my pantry of things that should have never been there in the first place. sorry, to you that you had too go but i'm not so good at sharing my food, especially with a mouse.

cheers

here's to 09.

a fresh start. i needed a clean slate.

this is personal. that is a good thing. weight loss needs to be more personal for me. i am doing it for me and the ones i love. i am the only one who can do it.

there is no magic wand. i know what works and now is the time to do it. no more waiting!

to be honest, i don't have a certain number or size in mind. instead, i have a feeling in mind. this time i am not aiming for perfection, rather health. i want to feel good. not sluggish. not tired. not slow. rather, energetic, smiley and fun. i know that a lighter me would help this situation, not just physically, but emotionally.

not going to focus so much on the numbers this time. that is as long as things are going down, even if just a bit.

so, the format? simple. feelings. thoughts. gripes. achievements. personal.

thinking about starting another blog for other things that i think would help others like recipes, finds, links, etc. many of your blogs have helped me. i want to do the same. will keep you posted.

i want to share that. that's why i am here. i would love support. find others here encouranging. thanks!

so cheers to the new year. cheers to all that is to come. cheers to momentum, best of both worlds. (more to come on that later.) cheers to finally feeling fine. cheers to 09!